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My Traumatizing Mental Hospital Experience



My Traumatizing Mental Hospital Experience

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  1. @ArtemisTheForgiver on

    I went to the mental hospital last year in October and the experience was pure hell. The emotions i felt overshadowed the ones i felt that got me there in the first place. My ex friend was the one who got me there which sparked MAJOR trust issues. After that i got sent there which made me have attachment issues and abandonment issues. No one ever tells people about the feeling of going insane/de realization. The hospital i went to had no access to the outside world and the few windows only aimed towards the other parts of the facilities walls. That led to me feeling an overwhelming sense of loneliness and abandonment, i tried to remember things that comforted me like my gf and mom but all i could think about was the feeling that we were out of the world away from everyone and all the comfort i so much wanted. After a week and a half i came back worse and grew resentful of everyone. I then struggled withthe thought that the world did in fact go without me and that everything didn't just freeze. I then had to catch up on weeks of school work, cleaning, and social life stuff. Now i never feel safe with speaking about ny feelings or expressing them.

    Edit: the place was Ridgeview at Smyrna ga it is one of the worst hospitals and i wouldn't recommend staying there. I witnessed patient abuse, bad security, patients harming others and themselves and some even going to the hospital over poor care.

  3. @goddamnit7230 on

    Sadly, I think I am going to commit suicide soon here but I can certainly relate to this experience. Sadly, I have gone there three times and I feel it has certainly made me worse. I dont think I can do it anymore here. So think this is one of the few messages I have left in me. But I do hope for you to take care of yourself. Please do, it is a tough experience and a harsh one to have. Luckily, being a girl, I feel at least you have the chance to escape deep loneliness. It is something I feel I never go the chance to do. I think if I was born not a guy I could have had a chance but sadly, guys issues arent really cared about, moreso then that. We dont really get to survive or even share our experiences because that is a failure and men are replaceable. That is sadly all I really have learned from my experience. It has been an experience but that does not mean women dont have their own problems. That its just different kinds of problems we all face.

  4. @ombrenightcores on

    I’ve been to different wards thirteen times (almost all for medication reactions so I could wane off them slowly and safely) and it really does depend on which hospital you go to. Some hospitals are safe spaces that put a huge emphasis on therapy (especially art and music therapy) with supportive staff and great security protections (I was almost SAed in a hospital once – the nurse/security took it seriously and transferred the guy to a different location [he ended up getting arrested on a completely different charge]). Another time a nurse confused me with a different patient and tried to force medication I was deathly allergic to down my throat thinking I was “resisting treatment” for not taking it and correcting my name (another nurse had to pry her off me). Unfortunately some places are funded better than others, which affects the quality of staff and safety conditions. I still think it’s important to go if you feel your life is in danger, but I empathize with people who are just as unsafe in their local wards.

  6. @lil_idiot10 on

    I has a story but I didn’t go to a mental hospital.. I mean I could’ve probably but I didn’t

    So basically one day I wanted to cuddle with my mom and as soon as I walked into her room she went “Go play or do chores” and that just hit the button that just pissed me off so much so I grabbed a knife and like my weak kid nerd arms went slice
    …
    My arm was fine I was way too weak to actually do it (mentally and physically) so there were red marks and my mom saw them and I was like “oh yea I um.. fell 😀” so yea

  7. @bluedye4068 on

    This is why I'm never calling a helpline. They just call the cops on you and send you to a psych ward, and you have no way of knowing whether you're in for an actual healing experience or this.

  8. @CriticalFangirl on

    I am 2 days post-discharge, and my experience was hell. I was lucky to have picked a hospital that had a co-ed unit and to have gotten a roommate who is also a trans woman that I became friends with. However, the staff was condescending, and my roommate and I got deadnamed and misgendered (her more than me). The food wasn't filling. They had an LMP that was rude and even ableist to all of the patients, who never got fired, btw. And every time I felt like I was getting better, something happened that made me realize I took my therapist for granted, and I needed to GTFO! It was more of an endurance test than actual help.

  11. @patrickbubniak4527 on

    That sounds like a lot of food in general. You can only drink so much protein in one day, the people preparing the food were questionable. Ensure protein drinks has 30 g of protein, and the limit is 3.5 g per kg of a person's body weight per day.

  13. @my_h3ad_hurts on

    i feel like if you were allowed to keep your phone, it might be safe to ban certain apps that might push you back into a cycle (for example i watch a lot of vent videos for comfort) or they could at least take a look at your for you page..? idk this is probably very controversial:(

  19. @juliadream1622 on

    To let anyone know this person probably went to a mental hospital before more of the “morale treatment movement” got better mental hospitals have helped me and others so much they are a lot better now a days even just a couple of years ago they weren’t as good but now they are doing better and helping people

  20. @mayowhishes on

    im feeling so disconnected from reality after it, i couldnt believe i was being warded to start with and then they kept extending how long they were keeping me like i was stuck in a nightmare being told i could wake up in just a moment but in reality i had zero rights in there !! i don't understand what crime i have done, i can't believe crying and not wanting blood drawn and not divulging my personal life info… how could this have really just happened?? im searching for people with similar experiences and others that share my confusion. Thank you so much for sharing your experience its a good comfort that im not alone and grounding in it being a real thing that happened

  21. @LavenderThestickmann on

    I swear most storytime animators ive watched (only 3) have gone to a mental hospital should i be concerned?
    Edit:funfact well not really fun…im a EXTREMELY traumatised kid and yk what people do about it? Absolutely nothing it may be because i keep it to myself i have su1c!dal thoughts and SH thoughts but ive never actually done it thankfully i also have depression anxiety and ADHD and a bully so what do i have to say about this? I need to be put in a mental hospital but not one like everyone else is talking about

  22. @yourfellowdoodler7200 on

    Hey, if you're reading this i wanna say hello and how's it going now? Hurt and unheard emotions are one of my least favorite things to endure, for a lot of my life i had to sit with this, only now i am getting heard again and i cannot imagine what it was like. I know that i haven't measured up to your feelings in my life but I couldn't just ignore this, what you went through was extremely hard to listen to but it opened my eyes to the system put in place. The Idea of being isolated and having emotions repressed until you submit to their actions qnd rules are awful. I remember when i cried and begged to go home in a retreat and I was just told to trust in them but i couldn't, i was so overstimulated and just drained from all the stuff they made me do, i hate that you had to go through this but I wanted to just say that you and all others going through similar should just be heard. I can't do that much now but i want nothing more than justice, a reform, a new way of dealing with all the mental anguish those had to experience. All the negativity people are saying is justified, and i hope that they find peace in themselves.
    I can't get it off it mind, it's just too strong. Have a good day man, ill see you around

  23. @LeahFanek-6141 on

    The hospitals for me were so full that they would start breaking rules and let us have the remote for the tv that usually wasn’t on often, and we would constantly put on the entire broadway show of Hamilton like every other day 🤣 they also didn’t notice when I didn’t eat (pretty often) bc they were worrying about other kids bc I act really calm, good, low nessedities kind of person. They didn’t help when I went into a breakdown, this one girl, Marianna, usually calmed me down. Omg she was so kind!!! ^^ we gambled with crayons, bc crayons were basically the currency there, and we would play cards and bet our crayon stashes >:3 but I was bullied in there by other kids, I never spoke up about it tho… ppl were aware of the bullying, one of my friends I made, who was autistic (on a more severe side of the spectrum) was bullied a lot, and I wasn’t good at protecting her…. I was sent to the hospital without notice either, but I knew my mom was going to send me there when I was told to get in the car and wear comply clothes, and she also told me to eat bc she didn’t know when I’d be able to eat again, and I wanted to go to a mental hospital and did my research a few days prior, but decided against it and decided I wanted to leave earth, instead of ask for help- I GOT THE HELP BUT IT DIDNT WORK! The only ppl who help is my friends, my mom yelled at me for my harm and wanting to die and whenever I dint feel like talking about my feelings, she gets mad… my dad makes jokes about my situation and harm… unkind. Both of them. The hospital was ok, but I stilll never want to go back even tho I’m dying in 10 days :p

  24. @jeiifeatherz on

    as someone who was forced to go to a psych ward by parents without telling me prior, you sharing a traumatic experience about in mental hospital with these similar experiences makes me feel seen. I was around 12-13 years old, and later again at 14.

  25. @elvinwisp on

    There are literally no good mental hospitals near me and I only found out after I went to one that my therapists recommended and I got a bunch if my stuff taken away, including my jacket that I had been wearing sunce first grade, and everyone was super loud, which was not fun since I have sensory issues. The showers were also painful because of the high water pressure and the floor would get completely wet even when I closed the currain completely. Those were the main things that bothered me, but also the nurses weren't good at handling whenever a kid would get upset and would usually end up talking to them like they were in trouble for it. It wasn't too bad, but it also wasn't anywhere near the best either, and it didn't help me at all

    Oh, wait- yeah there was also no individual therapy… I can't believe I forgot that lol.. just check-ins here and there and group, which was just bullying and anger management and stuff like that, which I had no problems with at all, and they only talked about bullying because the other kids kept bullying this one younger kid.. yeah it was not good

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